Frederic stood by the bed, with his hands in his pockets. His handsome and indifferent face was shrouded in the light, and he just looked at me quietly like that.
For a long time, Frederic answered, "I don't know."
"Hahaha..." I was taken aback, then burst into uncontrollable laughter. The laughter echoed in the bedroom. Gradually, I felt my eyes moisten and my breathing became tight.
I thought it was so funny. I wiped away the tears of laughter from my eyes and looked up at Frederic. "I never expected you to answer me like that. I could be your pursuer, lapdog, nominal wife, marriage tool... so many identities, and you didn't think of a single one?"
"Frederic, you were really selfish. If you didn't love me, you should have let me go and pursue the woman you truly like. With your current status, what difference does it make if you lose a little support from my family? I have loved you for ten years. How many ten years can a person have in their life? And these ten years are the most beautiful youth of a woman! Even if you don't like me, at least you should let me leave with some dignity, considering I spent all my youth on you. People have compassion, do you have to be so cruel?"
I became more and more excited as I spoke. After my rebirth, I had been restraining myself and seeking self-liberation, hoping to leave this hopeless marriage as soon as possible and not endure another torture.
I couldn't even walk in the end. What's more, I had to watch things getting more and more out of control. I felt like a failure.
Suddenly, I grabbed a book from beside the bed and smashed it onto Frederic's face. However, he didn't dodge, but his face became increasingly gloomy, as if he was restraining his anger.
I grabbed the pillow again and stood on the bed, hitting him hard while cursing non-stop, "Frederic, you bastard! You deserve to die! You've been worried about Sam's illness these days, right? You left me at your house for three or four days, do you remember to pick me up? Since you love Emilia so much, why did you waste my time!! Divorce!! I want a divorce!!"
The state of this shrew made me feel like I had gone back to my previous life.
Back then, I was desperately trying to keep Frederic from leaving me and refused to agree to a divorce as if I had gone mad.
"Enough!" Frederic finally lost his temper with me. He snatched the pillow from my hand and threw it on the ground, his eyes turning slightly red with overwhelming anger. "You want a divorce? Fine, then let's get divorced! I'll draft up the divorce agreement for you!"
Frederic finished speaking and strode out of the bedroom.
I did want a divorce, but when I heard Frederic agree, a big piece of my heart suddenly felt empty. The feeling of unwillingness that I once had resurfaced. I tried to suppress it for a long time and gradually calmed myself down.
I thought, "Isn't this the purpose of my rebirth? Didn't I just want to divorce freely, help others, and also liberate myself?"
I took a deep breath and lay back in bed to sleep again. I tried to clear my mind. Otherwise, if my emotions fluctuated too much and caused my hormones to become imbalanced, it wouldn't be worth it.
The next day when I went to the hospital, Sam's ward was already empty.
Sam must have changed rooms. Frederic has always been very quick to act.
"Syl, you don't have to come to me every day. Don't worry, there are caregivers here," my mother said to me as she put down her phone and gave me some advice.
"Anyway, I had to come and see you. After all, you're my mom," I sat down and took my mom's hand, wanting to talk to her about my impending divorce, but not knowing where to start.
"My mother laughed and said, 'My daughter is really filial. If you had let me hold my grandchild earlier, it would have been even better!'"
My mother's answer made me even more hesitant. After I divorced Frederic, my mother didn't know when she could hold her grandson.
And I was a little worried that my parents would advise me not to get divorced. Although they had a bad impression of Frederic before and thought I was too humble, now that it's a done deal, they probably hope that I will stick to this marriage.